It’s going to take faith. It’s going to take trust. It’s going to take everything we’ve got even when we know it won’t be enough. It’s going to take hope. We even need a little bit of luck. And if anybody tells us we’re going to make it on our own, it isn’t true. Oh because baby, it takes two.

Today has got to be one of the most demoralizing day I’ve ever had this year! Three tests today and not a single one that I was proud of.

For physics, I got the first question completely wrong, all of the second completely right, and maybe majority of the third one. SO SAD!

ENGLISH WAS DEFINITELY THE WORST TEST OF THE FREAKEN DAY! >:| I did so terrible. That class always manages to demoralize me.

Calculus test wasn’t that bad, but by then I was already mentally exhausted. The bell rang and I still had three questions to do, so I guessed and I was right on all three! LMAO! But I still missed quite a bit for the ones that I thought I knew how to do. Oh well, time to finish all the assignments that I haven’t done this past week.

It’s only November and I’m so worn out already. I can’t wait for this to be over.

There, nothing cryptic. (:

Tell me why it feels like I’m falling and nothing is going to catch me in the end. It truly is frightening. It’s the fear of the unknown, yet this ‘unknown’ seems so familiar at the same time.  Somebody reach in and pull this bad gut feeling out of the pit of my stomach! It shouldn’t belong there. While you’re at it, take the feelings of hurt and broken promises away from my knowledge and replace it with feelings of assurance and care.

Lesson learned: Never trust something completely without a doubt.

Note to self: Stop making excuses up for other people. It’s probably not worth it.

Excuse my pessimism, but I see the end more than anything else right now.

Senior year has not been what I had hoped for completely. I did not want endless nights of work. I did not want to be busy writing responses to short answers and essays for college. I definitely did not want a frustrating year with band. Finally, I did not want to lose BOA. But all of that has happened, and what can I really do about it? Nothing really, except maybe make the best of what I now have.

On another note, somebody needs to put their hands over my eyes or something because I keep seeing too much in people’s body language and that has got to be no good. I wish I understood other people with 100% accuracy, that’d probably make things easier so I wouldn’t have to guess what they’re feeling and whatnot completely.

October 28, 2009. I will remember.

To be honest, who doesn’t want some love and attention? And what girl doesn’t like all the small little things that guys could do, but won’t do? Like you know, those good morning texts and whatnot. It’s cute.

A few months ago, I never thought I’d be standing in this situation, but here I am. A lot sure has changed from then until now. I can honestly say that I’ve been a happier person recently and by no means did it happen on its own. I’m really thankful for everything that I have right now and it seems to be one of the most important thing of my life at this very moment.

I’ve thought about a lot of things recently and I’m pretty convinced that if you fall, there’s a possibility that somebody might catch you. I’m hoping that this is the case.

I just don’t want to be brought to an all-time high only to be brought back down to an all-time low again.

This has been stuck in my head and I totally get Taylor Swift.

They scare me sometimes. :(

Why must you make yourselves so repulsive and make my heart race for all the wrong reasons? I’m going to have a heart attack at the age of 17.

Before I forget, I’m going to post my schedule for this year! My last year of high school! :D

0 Marching Band – Franco
1 AP Physics B – Frogue
2 AP Econ: Macro – Gustafson, K.
3 TA – Platt
4 AP Literature – Wingfield
5 Lunch
6 AP Calculus BC – Amasuga
7 Free
8 Advanced Band – Franco

4 AP classes again, I hope it won’t be too bad. I think my third period is telling me that I should take AP German since I’m the TA for that class, but that’s not going to happen!