Name: Michelle
March 18 1992
12:00 PM Time Zone is PST
Los Angeles, CA

Rising Sign is in 13 Degrees Cancer
Very sensitive by nature, you prefer to be in your own familiar surroundings. Cautious and conservative, you make changes in your life only very slowly, if at all. You do not open up easily to strangers. Friendships are made for life, however — once given, your trust is forever. Your mother, your home as a child and your early family life in general are very important to you. You are also very sentimental. When you feel self- confident, you are gentle, giving and protective of the needs of others. But when you feel insecure or threatened, you become overly sensitive to criticism, shy, withdrawn and moody. You have a strong need for security — in the sense that you are being loved, nourished and protected.

Sun is in 28 Degrees Pisces.
Extremely sensitive and emotional, you absorb the emotions of others (whether positive or negative) like a sponge. Emotionally vulnerable, you are easily upset and tend to cry readily. You are at your best when you can structure your environment in such a way that you are surrounded by positive, upbeat people. You are very helpful and understanding of the needs of others. Indeed, at times this can be a disadvantage, because you can be a sucker for anyone who needs help. Shy, dreamy, romantic in nature, you delight in retreating into your private fantasy world. Just be careful that you do not get lost in it! Trust your intuitions — you may be quite psychic.

Moon is in 29 Degrees Virgo.
You tend to be serious-minded but cheerful for the most part. You need tasks that engage both your mind and your hands. A careful worker, you enjoy making things. You are neat and orderly, and are very concerned with good health habits. Fastidious to the extreme, you cannot tolerate messes and will immediately clean them up. Reserved, shy, and very self-critical, you tend to be very hard on yourself. You usually will go out of your way to be helpful and useful to others. Practical, reliable, efficient and conservative, at times you are a bit of a prude. You are known to lead a simple, uncomplicated, frugal, methodical and unemotional lifestyle. You are devoted and caring to those you love.

Mercury is in 11 Degrees Aries.
Very quick-witted, you are known for being an independent thinker. You love to debate and argue, and are excellent at repartee and battles of wits. At times, however, you act too fast on hastily formed opinions and thus waste a lot of energy defending your rash and sometimes incorrect conclusions. It is perfectly acceptable for you to defend your beliefs with your usual vigor, but try not to take the opinions of others as personal insults.

Venus is in 05 Degrees Pisces.
You have a dreamy, fanciful, romantic nature and a very creative imagination. Indeed, at times, your private fantasies are more appealing than the reality around you and it is difficult for you to leave them. You tend to be unselfish and giving in relationships and are extremely sensitive of the needs of others. Be very sure that those you help are worthy of your devotion and are not merely taking advantage of your innocence and naivete.

Mars is in 22 Degrees Aquarius.
Your ideas and opinions are usually inventive and original, but sometimes they are merely eccentric and offbeat. You are altruistic — you will work hard for the attainment of group goals, as long as they meet your high standards. You tend to resent traditional authority figures because you think that your ideas are better thought out and more valuable than theirs. Very idealistic, you are a rebel WITH a cause!

Jupiter is in 07 Degrees Virgo.
You feel most expansive and at ease with yourself when you are doing something that you consider to be practical or useful. You enjoy being dutiful and carrying out responsibilities. You gladly take on the little tasks that others seem to want to avoid. At times, you carry things to extremes and feel guilty anytime you do something that you consider to be self-indulgent. While it is appropriate for you to demand little for yourself in life, try to loosen up once in a while — go out on a fling and enjoy yourself!

Saturn is in 14 Degrees Aquarius.
Your personal sense of values is a reflection of the value structures of your peer group and of those you respect and admire. Try to be more critical in your acceptance of these values — you tend to prejudge the abilities of those you trust and then follow what they say blindly. Basically very conservative, you prefer orderly, systematic changes and fear doing things rashly or impulsively. Ideas and philosophies must have some sort of immediately realizable, utilitarian function in order for you to pay any attention to them.

Uranus is in 17 Degrees Capricorn.
You, and your peer group as well, seek out practical solutions to a changing society’s attitudes to customs, traditions and authority structures. Your logical and orderly manner of dealing with these matters will result in permanent and carefully planned, but sweeping, reforms.

Neptune is in 18 Degrees Capricorn.
You, and your entire generation, will idealize work, practicality and the ability to attain reasonable goals. But, because you will also stress the need to be selfless and giving, you may find it difficult to attain your goals unless you have lowered your expectations on all fronts.

Pluto is in 22 Degrees Scorpio.
For your entire generation, this is a period of intense research and discovery in areas that were heretofore considered mysterious, remote or taboo. The root causes for many complex occurrences will be unearthed due to the intensity and thoroughness of the search.

N. Node is in 05 Degrees Capricorn.
You rarely get involved closely with anyone unless he or she has something specific and practical to offer you. You tend to be “all business” when it comes to dealing with others. You’re usually so intently focused on a particular goal that you rarely have time for social niceties or casual fellowship. But you can definitely be counted on by others to get things done. When you say that you’ll do something, you do it. As such, you’re a valuable member of any team situation and will probably rise to a position of leadership within the group. Your trustworthiness and sense of responsibility are unquestioned. But do try to avoid the temptation to “use” others to reach your goals — they might come to resent you.

No fucks given to anybody, especially you. Get real.

Honestly, I’m just a little bummed. Bummed because I don’t know what happened or what changed necessarily. Maybe I do, but I don’t see it as a reason for such drastic change.

While being bummed, I am able to look back at these past few days and feel utter contentment. Content that things have been so carefree and having fun with no judgement passed.

So maybe everything is alright after all and I’ll find it in myself to sleep soon. Need to wake up in about 3.5 hours!

This would all be great if I wasn’t sick.

In one week, I’ve decided to drop a math class (real analysis). Actually, I went to one lecture and I decided that I was going to drop it the moment I came back to my apartment. Now I’m only taking 3 classes and I feel like such a lazy, unproductive bum. I’m home all day while others are out in class. I feel like I should be taking more classes or doing more with my days. Maybe I’ll have a better chance of landing a job now that I have such a clear schedule.

It’s rush week and I’ve met a few rushees at events. I’m so excited for the winter pledge class and my future (possibly) little that I’ll pick up this quarter. Ahhh we’ll see how that goes and if I’ll get a little to pick up.

NBA season… great. Watched every Chicago game and I must say they’re doing pretty well, with the exception of some off days that makes me yell at the tv/my computer screen. But the point is, as of today, they’re first in the eastern conference and Miami is on a losing streak (3). I’ve spent way too much time on nba.com these past few weeks, but it’s a good distraction from everything else, except when homework needs to be done. Streaming a game while attempting homework has probably been one of the dumbest ideas I’ve ever had my entire life. Why did I even think I’d be able to get any work done?

Sometimes, you don’t have all the right words to put how you feel into words. It’s 2:30am, I can hardly sleep, but I can hardly figure out what’s on my mind to write about it and maybe that’s why I haven’t written anything. I just don’t know what to say anymore. I don’t know who to talk to when I need somebody to listen because I don’t know who would listen. I don’t even need that person to understand, just listen and offer comfort. To be a friend.

Friend, where are you?

I was so excited when this happen. A minute before this, I thought the Lakers had the win in the bag, but then Derrick Rose pulled something I never thought possible. He’s such a beast.

This just made the Chicago Bulls my favorite NBA team.

Derrick Rose was always going to win an NBA MVP award. But that it happened this year, at the age of just 22, is ridiculous. Dirk Nowitzki led his team to the title, but Derrick Rose was the bust-out star of 2011. Nobody pretends to be Dirk on the playground. Everybody pretends to be Derrick. Dirk has the jumper. Derrick has the drive, the stop-and-pop, the finger roll, and our favorite, the twisting-curving-winding sprint to the lane that manages to freeze defenders, not break his spine, and drop home the lay-in. The craziest part? He still feels like he has training wheels on. “Ain’t done nothin’ yet,” he says. “The best is coming.”

I haven’t always been a basketball fan, nonetheless know anything about the players, but I find Derrick Rose to be a promising player and I honestly cannot wait to see what he does with his career. Youngest player to receive MVP? Shit.

So it’s Christmas Day and I’ve been watching the NBA games on tv all day since I got up starting with the Miami vs. Dallas game.