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May!

It has been a month and an update is long overdue. It’s weird thinking about how I used to blog so much and now all of a sudden I’ve just stopped. It has almost been 2 years since I’ve had this blog!

AP tests are over and that is a big relief! Calculus AB was by far the easiest test I’ve taken. I’m not quite sure about the others, I think I just did average on those, except for biology, which was probably slightly below average. I have got to admit that it was pretty impressive when my bs about viruses and the central dogma of biology turned out to be right! Anyway, I’m hoping for some positive responses in July. :D

So recently I tried downloading the CS4 Master Collection again, and it turned out to be epic fail! I kept getting, “Session has dependencies that cannot be satisfied,” when I tried to start the setup. Then I remembered that when I got my CS3 Photoshop, I had to delete my Photoshop 7, so I deleted my CS3 hoping that it would work. BUT IT DID NOT WORK WHATSOEVER! Then I just thought I could live with just CS3 and I can download Illustrator separately later, so I got the setup for my CS3 and that didn’t even work! So now I’m CS4-less and CS3-less. It’s so sad for me to not have my Photoshop. But Chase is saving my life. :)

I’m also really mad about the debates we’re doing in APUSH. I’m just frustrated that I got a crap of a partner that cannot formulate her own thoughts and let alone the rebuttals! I think I should have gotten the chance to pick who I wanted to work with. Stupid AP bio test screwed me over. If we are keeping these same partners for the next debate, I swear that I am going to go insane because I hate doing so much work.

I really don’t see a reason in pushing things back nor do I find it necessary to see how far a person would bend until they break, figuratively. I think if you chose to do what you do, you should be able to manage your time, if you can’t, you shouldn’t be doing what you’re doing then. Grow up; you’re not always going to have people bending to your requests. Get used to staying up late every once in a while, it’s not the end of the world if you’re tired the next morning.

It really bothers me nowadays when people are doing things the very last minute seeing how we haven’t been having any homework in our AP classes except for APUSH. No excuses. I don’t give a crap if you have other stuff because you’re not obligated to do those things in the first place.

I’m quite disturbed by some things that I found out. She’s way too desperate and blind and he’s an unfaithful jerk. At the same time, I don’t feel bad that she’s putting herself in a bad situation because she should be learning from other people’s mistakes and she should know that people don’t change. If she can’t learn from people’s mistakes, then I hope she learns from her own after screwing up. I sound mean, but I’m pretty sure that what used to be a “close” friend would not do that to one another, and that makes the consequences well-deserved.

Things would be better off if certain people would get a life and get out of mine. Honestly, I was hoping to never see that person again, but apparently I’ll be seeing them plenty next year. If he happens to butt into my business, I very well will give him a hard time, no joke. If they give crap, I will openly disagree with their methods because as of what I’m hearing, I will hate them to the moon and back.

And that concludes an update from my last post til now, with some missing things in between.

On a side note, I hope Kris Allen wins American Idol. Adam Lambert was good but his voice gets on my last nerves now. It’s just simultaneous shrieking that I wish would stop.

Really, it hurts

I don’t know what else to say besides that it really hurts. I understand there’s no obligation to care here, but please, some integrity and compassion. Having integrity would do some good. Compassion never hurts anybody.

I don’t mean half the things I say, and I wish some people would understand that. But no. So it doesn’t matter on my behalf anymore. I’m not wasting any more of my time caring if I’ll be the only one that shows that. You don’t need to throw yourself all over me or suffocate me with affection, but doing all of that is no freaken way of saying that you care. If you beg to differ, you’re just dilusional!

On the other hand, I’m heartbroken that 13 is probably going to die. :( Foreman really loves her though because if he didn’t, then he wouldn’t have made the irrational decision to risk his career just to start 13 on the real medicine for her Huntingtons. It’s really sad, next week is supposed to be epic, and I’m looking forward to that! I guess loving somebody does make you really irrational.

RE: somebody’s ignorance

I think I read the dumbest bulletin of the day, so I decided to write a quick response to it.

Sorry if high school is so “serious”, but some people just don’t want to make mistakes and look back at them and say, “Geez, I could have grown up a little bit more.” In my opinion, high school is a pretty important part of people’s lives, so you can’t say it’s just high school. It’s true that in a few years you’re probably never going to see some of those people ever again, but what you do in high school greatly affects your future and you just have to be serious about your future. There’s really no joking around a ridiculous amount and you should never lose control of your life. Personally, I think if you can’t take things seriously now, you’re never going to be able to later. There’s enough time later on to losen up.

Excuse me if you’re not grown up or know what you want in your life, but there are people out there who have grown up and actually know what they want out of their lives. Maybe you should learn to look up to those people that know what they want instead of criticizing their lifestyles because yours isn’t any better when you’re wasting your life making mistakes. At least those people know what they need to do in order to get where they want. Setting an example of a good lifestyle is absolutely fine in the teenage years, not all teenagers are destructive and idiotic. Get rid of that stereotype already, it doesn’t fit everybody. This isn’t called impatience. It’s simply being grown up and mature. Wake up call: there are mature teenagers out there. Don’t criticize people who have things better than you do to make yourself feel better for all the mistakes you’ve made in your life. Grow up already, you’ll find yourself absolutely ridiculous, I promise you. If you don’t, you’re just completely irrational.

Maybe I’m not any better, but I’m content with where my life is heading and I know what I want. Too bad you don’t have your life in order. Sorry that you’re wasting your time making mistakes. I feel no sympathy for you though because you should know better. Stop putting yourself on this pedestal and making yourself seem any better because you’re not; you’re not as grown up as you try to make yourself sound. I probably have no right to be saying this, but your actions are screaming the complete opposite of your words. I’ll change my mind about you when you prove me wrong and when you learn how to spell and use your grammar. What have you freaken learned all these years in English anyway? Nothing. That’s what you’re showing people. Points are made clearer when you can use correct spelling and grammar, just for future reference.

Things are looking good

Really, things are just looking good despite the fact that I’m still slightly overwhelmed with the amount of homework we get. :) Well okay, there are a few exceptions to that I guess because some things just really piss me off like no other.

I won’t make some rant about my grades for now because I’m the only one to blame for that. But I will rant about what big mouths some people have. Honestly since when did everything seem to matter? Why is it that people can’t learn to keep their mouths shut about something that somebody tells me? It’s a bunch of crap! It cannot be justified with something along the lines of, “Well the person didn’t say to not tell anybody else.” It just doesn’t work that way. It should just be assumed that you don’t tell people. To have somebody trust you with not saying anything and then betraying that, it’s not acceptable. I wish people would stop butting in, I don’t need that and I don’t like to see that happen to others either.

On a much happier note, Jorge asked me to homecoming Friday. :) I think that was the biggest highlight of the month. I mean seriously, it couldn’t have gone wrong with the yellow roses. It was just very well done and very touching. :) Even though Melissa gave it away completely by trying to make a justification of why there was another rose sitting on my desk the moment I got back from the restroom. But I’m truly thankful for everything that has been done.

Okay so I seriously need this guilt-pushing to stop. I’m so offended at the things that could possibly be said. Why such a sudden mood swing? I’m not trying to hide anything. Cursing doesn’t make your solutions any better, especially at me. Wtf, just don’t curse at me ever. And to think that somebody who has known me longer should understand me better than somebody that hasn’t known me for such a short period. I am absolutely pissed off like no other and maybe I should just stop caring so much like I always tell myself.

Olympics Gymnastic rant

This rant will be kind of old, but I guess I’ll write it down on here anyway. So gymanstics really pissed me off this weekend.

For one reason, I thought Alicia Sacromone should have deserved the bronze medal for the vault. Her landing was so much better than Cheng Fei’s and she wasn’t the one that fell on her knees and hands for that one. I honestly thought that more points should have been deducted because of the landing, but nope. It just seems like the judges are favoring the Chinese, ugh. I wanted to cry Alicia, her heart just keeps getting broken and even more broken.

I was a bit upset that the Romanian girl won the floor routine over Shawn Johnson. I didn’t think the Romania’s routine was much, but whatever I guess. I’m not super mad about that.

The event that got me the angriest was over Nastia’s placement in the uneven bar finals versus China. THEIR SCORES WERE TIED! Honestly, I swear the judges are favoring the Chinese more because China made more obvious mistakes than Nastia did yet they got 0.01 point higher after the stupid tie-breaker thing they did that didn’t even make any sense whatsoever! They probably should’ve performed again or given them both gold medals.

It’s a bit ridiculous how most of China’s gold medals are from events that are judged by judges. Even though the judges are probably unbiased, you never know. Not trying to start a conspiracy here, but I’m sure I’m not the only one who thinks this.

I practically cried. :(

I really don’t like how sometimes characters of books are portrayed when they turn into movies. But it was different for Twilight, at least from what I’ve seen. I mean, Robert Pattinson does a really good job from the clips that I’ve seen online. But today, that kind of changed even though it probably wouldn’t have been really his fault. >:| So I was reading my friends page on LJ, and I saw the picture that was to be the cover of Entertainment Weekly. I gasped and then clicked on the enlarged picture and then was suddenly repulsed by the image before my eyes. Robert Pattinson (Edward Cullen in the movie) had his shirt open and I was so disgusted because he had chest hair. Let’s just say that, what we see on the cover of EW wasn’t what I thought would be under those slick button up shirts of his. Well, I actually knew he had chest hair because of some HQ photos I’ve seen, but I was hoping I’d never see a picture with his shirt open like that. >:| Anyway, that picture does not portray Twilight the way that I imagine it in anyway. I think that picture makes Twilight seem like some cheap romance novel that you pick up at a supermarket in the middle of nowhere. Truly, that’s strictly an opinion because I know that a lot of people actually like that picture. But for me, that picture does the book and Edward Cullen no justice! Might I add that the make up is done horribly too. He looks more like a zombie than a freaken gorgeous vampire. I think Robert would look absolutely gorgeous in that outfit if he had his shirt buttoned though. He does the button-up shirt look very well. ;) So as I told Yolanta: Rochester > Cullen, at least until he decides to look freaken beautiful again.

Okay, so here’s the picture that I’m frustrated over:

Like seriously, wtf. Does he not look absolutely gorgeous in this:

So you see, that makes: Cullen > Rochester, even though that’s not a set picture, so he looks more human. ;) But still, it makes his body look so beautiful rather than beer-belly-like. Set picture:

Okay, Robert Pattinson/Edward Cullen pwns. The end.

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my lifeless summer

Hello, it has been a while, or at least I think so. I’m too lazy to actually check my last post since my internet is kind of lagging a bit. So an update: I finished the 3 books in the Twilight series, that are currently available, in a matter of 6 days. It’s very lifeless to say the least, but also very much worth it because I actually stayed up to read it! Anyway, I have a rant on it, which I will save to do so in a little bit. Let me just say that Edward Cullen has got me swooning all over him to say the very least. I do admit it’s funny how it’s over a fictional character.

I’m going to the beach tomorrow! That should be exciting. It has been so long since I’ve gone that it’s not even funny at all. I haven’t been swimming often either, which is fine I guess; I was too wrapped up by the books I was reading. :)

Other than that, nothing has been too important in my life, so I guess I’ll continue on with the Twilight stuff. If you haven’t read the book and you don’t want me to spoil it for you, don’t continue reading!

Okay, so I was thoroughly satisfied with ‘Twilight’ and I immediately fell in love with Edward. So no complaints. It was pretty epic when Bella had to face James by herself and the fact that she was bitten made me gasp. Reading about Edward and Bella together makes me so happy! I smile every time they kiss because Bella completely forgets to breathe. But then in ‘New Moon’ when Jasper nearly pounced Bella, I was so angry because the Cullens ended up moving away. I was completely heartbroken for Bella and it was like I could feel her pain and part of me really cried. Then I started getting angry because Jacob became way more involved than I had liked and then it seemed like Bella was  falling for Jacob. Oh plus the fact that my heart broke for Bella when Edward broke up with her, I actually cried! It was so suspenseful when Edward thought Bella committed suicide by jumping off a cliff, but he hadn’t known that Jacob saved her, because Jacob is a werewolf and the only reason why Edward thought that was because of Alice, who “sees” into the future, but cannot see werewolves. Okay so yeah, then Edward tried to kill himself in Italy and I was just screaming in silence because I loved him so much! But I knew he wasn’t go to die, how could the story possibly continue if he died?! >:| Well okay so Edward is hurt that he had hurt Bella and I was just completely satisfied that they were together again, but I still didn’t like the idea of Jacob at all. So then in ‘Eclipse’, Edward proposed to Bella and I was just screaming for her to say yes. It took her such a long time, but then towards the end, she said yes, but only because she wanted Edward to sleep with her first (which was like omg wtf and shallow!). Whatever motivated her didn’t matter to me, just the fact that she was going to marry him. Then Jacob kissed Bella and stuff and I got so mad at those parts! >:| It really amazed me that Edward was pretty calm about it and then I kind of envied his patience and the fact that he was willing to have himself hurt just to see Bella happy. Yeah okay that made me really envious because I want a guy like Edward! :) I felt extremely bad when Jacob got injured though because I really wanted him dead and out of the story, seeing his parts made me want to skip to parts with Edward’s name in it. But of course he doesn’t die, but in the epilogue he runs off (I guess). The book ended with Jacob’s point of view, which I don’t like. So I hope the next book will be in Bella’s point of view still.

Edward and Bella are getting married, that’s all that I freaken care about right now!

I feel like such a teenie bopper swooning for Edward Cullen. It’s an obsession.

I smell a new banner coming up soon that involves Edward Cullen. ;)

You would think

You would think that by now, people would learn from their mistakes and realize their stupidity and ignorance, but no. Instead they roam on with their life pretending that everything they do is still absolutely right when their logic is absolutely screwed up and WRONG on so many levels. Surely I may not have the right to tell people if their logic is right or not, but come on, it’s almost common sense that they’re missing out on.

Cursing is not a virtue. I want to slap everybody that cusses especially when it’s absolutely unnecessary.

At this moment, I would love to completely understand the German language and start talking to people in it because I did that for a second with Yolanta today, and it was fun. :)

On a note of originality, I truly believe there is no such thing; especially if it’s “your thing”. Everybody gets their inspiration from somewhere, which means that it has existed before. So what’s so original about that? Absolutely nothing. This gets me irritated especially when people get anal about it.

Kids burn themselves, somehow; it hurts really bad, but that’s part of learning to never do that again because it hurts. Idiots would burn themselves all over even though they know that it’ll hurt them as much as the first, if not even more. Seeing that absolutely breaks my heart, but only for one person since I understand that person.

It’s been long

I find it a bit awkward, I’m not sure if I really like it or not because I’m not digging the new post look right now. It’s so weird looking, I wish the widgets were still on the side and not the bottom. But I DO like the “newer” look to it instead of the plain-ish look. It’s really hard to describe because I’m probably contradicting myself.

Well lately things haven’t been the best, but it’s still pretty nice. First off people really annoy me sometimes and make no sense. They want attention, and when they get it, they push people away. Then to complain about not having privacy?! HELLO, I think you need to realize what you do too. Treat others the way you’d want to be treated; go live by it. Just know that karma’s a bitch, okay.

By the way, when did I need to tell you where I’m going and why? It really annoys me when I’m at a certain place and somebody there asks, “What are you doing here?” Okay, is it like I can’t be here? Especially at a game or something. I just want to watch, goodness. I don’t need your permission to be anywhere unless it’s your house.

People annoy me more and more each day.