Archive for the ‘life’ Category

Post

In disappointment, life, school on November 2, 2009 by Michelle

Senior year has not been what I had hoped for completely. I did not want endless nights of work. I did not want to be busy writing responses to short answers and essays for college. I definitely did not want a frustrating year with band. Finally, I did not want to lose BOA. But all of that has happened, and what can I really do about it? Nothing really, except maybe make the best of what I now have.

On another note, somebody needs to put their hands over my eyes or something because I keep seeing too much in people’s body language and that has got to be no good. I wish I understood other people with 100% accuracy, that’d probably make things easier so I wouldn’t have to guess what they’re feeling and whatnot completely.

October 28, 2009. I will remember.

To be honest, who doesn’t want some love and attention? And what girl doesn’t like all the small little things that guys could do, but won’t do? Like you know, those good morning texts and whatnot. It’s cute.

Post

Protected: Best day.

In band, disappointment, fun, guys, happiness on October 3, 2009 by Michelle

This post is password protected. To view it please enter your password below:


Enter your password to view comments

Post

Things Change

In happiness, life on September 28, 2009 by Michelle

A few months ago, I never thought I’d be standing in this situation, but here I am. A lot sure has changed from then until now. I can honestly say that I’ve been a happier person recently and by no means did it happen on its own. I’m really thankful for everything that I have right now and it seems to be one of the most important thing of my life at this very moment.

I’ve thought about a lot of things recently and I’m pretty convinced that if you fall, there’s a possibility that somebody might catch you. I’m hoping that this is the case.

I just don’t want to be brought to an all-time high only to be brought back down to an all-time low again.

Post

Protected: Falling Down

In a good laugh, friends, life on September 5, 2009 by Michelle

This post is password protected. To view it please enter your password below:


Enter your password to view comments

Post

Guys. >:|

In guys, random on August 30, 2009 by Michelle

They scare me sometimes. :(

Why must you make yourselves so repulsive and make my heart race for all the wrong reasons? I’m going to have a heart attack at the age of 17.

Post

Hot Surface

In confusion, crypticness, life, story on August 14, 2009 by Michelle

When you put your hands on a hot surface, you immediately pull your hand away. The consequence is a burn that will hurt really bad, but it’ll feel better once you put some aloe on it for a period of time. After that burn, maybe you’ll get a scar, but you’ll learn to never touch a hot surface again because it hurts and nobody should make the same mistake twice. But hypothetically, you burn yourself again in the same spot, but this time you purposely put your hand on the same hot surface as last time, how does it feel? Your skin was damaged from the first burn; what does that mean now? Your hands are going to hurt even more now. Surely a little bit of aloe will help, but how much does that actually help? Maybe it works the first time, but probably not this time around. So why would you purposely put yourself through all the pain all over again when you already know what will happen if you do? Had you not learned from the first time that putting your hands on a hot surface will hurt? Did you honestly think it would be different this time around? Nobody should be that stupid to make the same mistake twice.

Right now, it feels like I’m about to burn my hand again; I’m just like an inch away, I feel the heat, but I’m not pulling back. I learned a lot, hopefully I’m not stupid enough to make the same mistake all over again.

Post

Mix

In friends, thoughts, vent on June 4, 2009 by Michelle

I’m not sure how to say right now. I think I’ve been in the most awkward situation ever today. My heart aches for that person and I will never be able to understand his hurt, but part of me feels it for him and I wish I wasn’t able to relate to people so well. I don’t think I’ve ever been this emotional for a while.

On an angry note, I’ve realized I can be such a bitch. I swear, he manages to turn on my bitch switch every single time he says/does something. I don’t care how little it is, he totally turns that bitch switch on! I give up my attempt to not cuss until band season is over because I swear I will cuss so much. >:|

7th period in the library today was actually very amusing. Probably the most fun in a while. The basketball boys are so funny, no lie. It’s kind of obnoxious, but it was a bunch of good laughter. :)

Today was just such a bittersweet day. More bitter than sweet, or maybe it’s just all the same.

t

May!

In american idol, anger, annoyance, band, crypticness, epic, failure, rant, update, vent on May 16, 2009 by Michelle

It has been a month and an update is long overdue. It’s weird thinking about how I used to blog so much and now all of a sudden I’ve just stopped. It has almost been 2 years since I’ve had this blog!

AP tests are over and that is a big relief! Calculus AB was by far the easiest test I’ve taken. I’m not quite sure about the others, I think I just did average on those, except for biology, which was probably slightly below average. I have got to admit that it was pretty impressive when my bs about viruses and the central dogma of biology turned out to be right! Anyway, I’m hoping for some positive responses in July. :D

So recently I tried downloading the CS4 Master Collection again, and it turned out to be epic fail! I kept getting, “Session has dependencies that cannot be satisfied,” when I tried to start the setup. Then I remembered that when I got my CS3 Photoshop, I had to delete my Photoshop 7, so I deleted my CS3 hoping that it would work. BUT IT DID NOT WORK WHATSOEVER! Then I just thought I could live with just CS3 and I can download Illustrator separately later, so I got the setup for my CS3 and that didn’t even work! So now I’m CS4-less and CS3-less. It’s so sad for me to not have my Photoshop. But Chase is saving my life. :)

I’m also really mad about the debates we’re doing in APUSH. I’m just frustrated that I got a crap of a partner that cannot formulate her own thoughts and let alone the rebuttals! I think I should have gotten the chance to pick who I wanted to work with. Stupid AP bio test screwed me over. If we are keeping these same partners for the next debate, I swear that I am going to go insane because I hate doing so much work.

I really don’t see a reason in pushing things back nor do I find it necessary to see how far a person would bend until they break, figuratively. I think if you chose to do what you do, you should be able to manage your time, if you can’t, you shouldn’t be doing what you’re doing then. Grow up; you’re not always going to have people bending to your requests. Get used to staying up late every once in a while, it’s not the end of the world if you’re tired the next morning.

It really bothers me nowadays when people are doing things the very last minute seeing how we haven’t been having any homework in our AP classes except for APUSH. No excuses. I don’t give a crap if you have other stuff because you’re not obligated to do those things in the first place.

I’m quite disturbed by some things that I found out. She’s way too desperate and blind and he’s an unfaithful jerk. At the same time, I don’t feel bad that she’s putting herself in a bad situation because she should be learning from other people’s mistakes and she should know that people don’t change. If she can’t learn from people’s mistakes, then I hope she learns from her own after screwing up. I sound mean, but I’m pretty sure that what used to be a “close” friend would not do that to one another, and that makes the consequences well-deserved.

Things would be better off if certain people would get a life and get out of mine. Honestly, I was hoping to never see that person again, but apparently I’ll be seeing them plenty next year. If he happens to butt into my business, I very well will give him a hard time, no joke. If they give crap, I will openly disagree with their methods because as of what I’m hearing, I will hate them to the moon and back.

And that concludes an update from my last post til now, with some missing things in between.

On a side note, I hope Kris Allen wins American Idol. Adam Lambert was good but his voice gets on my last nerves now. It’s just simultaneous shrieking that I wish would stop.

Post

Untitled

In German, crypticness, friends, fun, good times on March 29, 2009 by Michelle

So on Wednesday, the German students arrived! I really liked 2nd period that day, giving them a tour around the school and then just talking to them afterwards. It was just nice. On Friday, I went over to Melissa’s house for pizza and movie with her, Kevin, and Yolanta’s students. Watched Transformers and most of them started falling asleep; so amusing, haha.

On Saturday, I went to the Huntington Library with Yolanta, Zsofi, and Vanessa. We did 4 hours of walking and I took quite a bit of pictures, mostly of flowers. That day was the day I discovered the macro setting on my camera! So the second half of my pictures were really nice quality thanks to that setting. :) Anyway, afterward I went over to Yolanta’s house to swim. Melissa and Johanna ended up coming over. It was way too cold to swim though, so we were in the jacuzzi most of the time, just talking and whatnot. Then we had sushi for dinner, strawberries afterward, and finally rootbeer floats! :D Obviously, it was fun.

Now I’m home, sitting in front of the computer, feeling slightly overwhelmed over what seems to be nothing. I’m not interested in people randomly coming back into my life when they haven’t done anything productive for me all this time. I hate it. And to think things were going so well, I’m actually just back to where I’ve started. It really just sucks. Hopefully these next few weeks will keep me occupied so I won’t feel it at all.

Post

Birthday

In birthday on March 22, 2009 by Michelle

My birthday came and went. Nothing big happened and it never does, so I hadn’t expected too much. Present-wise, I don’t get much anymore and this year wasn’t any different. But it really got me thinking about something. How could a person be offered so much, and only give back so little? It kind of irritates me just a little.

So hey, I’m 17, but I don’t even feel like I’m 17, at all.