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Sounds almost impossible

In anger, annoyance on August 19, 2009 by Michelle

Maybe I expect too much from people so I always think they’re going to do well. I’ve been proven wrong before, but never this wrong. I don’t understand why it’s so hard to do a simple little thing.

I apologize for my endless complaints, but I do not like wasting time doing things over and over again just because of ONE person especially when I’ve corrected them so many times before already. I especially don’t like making other people suffer because of one person either.

Maybe I’m PMSing or I just have a short temper, but whatever it is, they’re turning on a bitch switch.

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Protected: Band angers me, A LOT.

In anger, band, rant on August 16, 2009 by Michelle

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May!

In american idol, anger, annoyance, band, crypticness, epic, failure, rant, update, vent on May 16, 2009 by Michelle

It has been a month and an update is long overdue. It’s weird thinking about how I used to blog so much and now all of a sudden I’ve just stopped. It has almost been 2 years since I’ve had this blog!

AP tests are over and that is a big relief! Calculus AB was by far the easiest test I’ve taken. I’m not quite sure about the others, I think I just did average on those, except for biology, which was probably slightly below average. I have got to admit that it was pretty impressive when my bs about viruses and the central dogma of biology turned out to be right! Anyway, I’m hoping for some positive responses in July. :D

So recently I tried downloading the CS4 Master Collection again, and it turned out to be epic fail! I kept getting, “Session has dependencies that cannot be satisfied,” when I tried to start the setup. Then I remembered that when I got my CS3 Photoshop, I had to delete my Photoshop 7, so I deleted my CS3 hoping that it would work. BUT IT DID NOT WORK WHATSOEVER! Then I just thought I could live with just CS3 and I can download Illustrator separately later, so I got the setup for my CS3 and that didn’t even work! So now I’m CS4-less and CS3-less. It’s so sad for me to not have my Photoshop. But Chase is saving my life. :)

I’m also really mad about the debates we’re doing in APUSH. I’m just frustrated that I got a crap of a partner that cannot formulate her own thoughts and let alone the rebuttals! I think I should have gotten the chance to pick who I wanted to work with. Stupid AP bio test screwed me over. If we are keeping these same partners for the next debate, I swear that I am going to go insane because I hate doing so much work.

I really don’t see a reason in pushing things back nor do I find it necessary to see how far a person would bend until they break, figuratively. I think if you chose to do what you do, you should be able to manage your time, if you can’t, you shouldn’t be doing what you’re doing then. Grow up; you’re not always going to have people bending to your requests. Get used to staying up late every once in a while, it’s not the end of the world if you’re tired the next morning.

It really bothers me nowadays when people are doing things the very last minute seeing how we haven’t been having any homework in our AP classes except for APUSH. No excuses. I don’t give a crap if you have other stuff because you’re not obligated to do those things in the first place.

I’m quite disturbed by some things that I found out. She’s way too desperate and blind and he’s an unfaithful jerk. At the same time, I don’t feel bad that she’s putting herself in a bad situation because she should be learning from other people’s mistakes and she should know that people don’t change. If she can’t learn from people’s mistakes, then I hope she learns from her own after screwing up. I sound mean, but I’m pretty sure that what used to be a “close” friend would not do that to one another, and that makes the consequences well-deserved.

Things would be better off if certain people would get a life and get out of mine. Honestly, I was hoping to never see that person again, but apparently I’ll be seeing them plenty next year. If he happens to butt into my business, I very well will give him a hard time, no joke. If they give crap, I will openly disagree with their methods because as of what I’m hearing, I will hate them to the moon and back.

And that concludes an update from my last post til now, with some missing things in between.

On a side note, I hope Kris Allen wins American Idol. Adam Lambert was good but his voice gets on my last nerves now. It’s just simultaneous shrieking that I wish would stop.

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Sick of it

In anger, school, vent on April 29, 2009 by Michelle

Really, I’m sick of people asking stupid questions or for help when they can clearly help themselves. I’m not even exaggerating when I say they can literally help themselves; you have the same resources that I have, so take your own time to look things up and stop expecting me to take time to looking it up myself and then regurgitate everything back to you. What do you get out of it? Probably just the answer, but nothing else. Do some of your own work! Stop making up excuses, too, it’s lame. Starting being independent, goodness gracious. It gets annoying when you’re constantly asking for help and not trying to help yourself first. I don’t always have time.

I am possibly in the worst mood ever from all this studying.

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For once

In anger, vent on October 17, 2008 by Michelle

For once I’d much rather not bottle up my feelings.

So I really thought that things were different this time around, it was all going so well. Was it just that sense of “freshness” that made everything seem okay when it truly isn’t? Anyway, I feel slightly let down. I thought this was supposed to be better than the past, but it clearly just looks the same. Maybe it’s because I’m not acting any better, but still, I thought the other person would have been better than this. This is like a slap on the face and I’m taking it pretty bad.

Now I’m sitting here, thinking of ways to justify people’s actions for them and getting butt hurt while doing it. Good job. I need to stop coming up with reasons for people, it shouldn’t be my job.

I keep saying I shouldn’t care, but has that happened yet? No; I care way too much and sometimes for the wrong reasons.

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Things are looking good

In anger, friends, rant, vent on October 5, 2008 by Michelle

Really, things are just looking good despite the fact that I’m still slightly overwhelmed with the amount of homework we get. :) Well okay, there are a few exceptions to that I guess because some things just really piss me off like no other.

I won’t make some rant about my grades for now because I’m the only one to blame for that. But I will rant about what big mouths some people have. Honestly since when did everything seem to matter? Why is it that people can’t learn to keep their mouths shut about something that somebody tells me? It’s a bunch of crap! It cannot be justified with something along the lines of, “Well the person didn’t say to not tell anybody else.” It just doesn’t work that way. It should just be assumed that you don’t tell people. To have somebody trust you with not saying anything and then betraying that, it’s not acceptable. I wish people would stop butting in, I don’t need that and I don’t like to see that happen to others either.

On a much happier note, Jorge asked me to homecoming Friday. :) I think that was the biggest highlight of the month. I mean seriously, it couldn’t have gone wrong with the yellow roses. It was just very well done and very touching. :) Even though Melissa gave it away completely by trying to make a justification of why there was another rose sitting on my desk the moment I got back from the restroom. But I’m truly thankful for everything that has been done.

Okay so I seriously need this guilt-pushing to stop. I’m so offended at the things that could possibly be said. Why such a sudden mood swing? I’m not trying to hide anything. Cursing doesn’t make your solutions any better, especially at me. Wtf, just don’t curse at me ever. And to think that somebody who has known me longer should understand me better than somebody that hasn’t known me for such a short period. I am absolutely pissed off like no other and maybe I should just stop caring so much like I always tell myself.

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>:|

In anger, vent on September 28, 2008 by Michelle

I hate how some people can be so capable of ruining your mood. I just hate it so much.

I wish people just moved on. I’m just so ready for that. This negative feeling is so frustrating. Guilt just needs to shove itself back into a hole, I don’t need that. I want to care, which I still do, but they’re making it difficult.

My day isn’t that great anymore. I thought we were better than that.

Wth, okay I just need to stop thinking everything will end up alright.

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I’m on a ranting frenzy.

In anger, vent on August 29, 2008 by Michelle

This post may contain profanity that would only come out in words, never really out of my mouth.

“Midnight Sun” leaked out of a copy of a manuscript that SMeyer, herself, had given to somebody. Big fucking deal. Well deserved if you were stupid enough to even give your drafts to family and friends for “good purposes”. Clearly she made the stupid mistake in the first place, nobody is to really blame for this but herself, but NOOO. She has to whine and be melodramatic about it that it’s absolutely fucking ridiculous. I’m so sick of her stupid threats to not continue writing MS because I honestly don’t care anymore. All she wants is attention that she cannot possibly deserve. There have been authors 10 times better than she’ll EVER be, and they don’t get half the plublicity her shitty self-pitty quotes get.

I don’t understand why I’m even wasting my time ranting, it’s absolutely ridiculous. But honestly she’s getting on my last fucking nerves. “I’m not going to finish the book because somebody leaked it and it violated my rights as an author blahblahblah”. I’m just fucking waiting for her to cause more drama by saying how she’s going to finish the book with some excuse of the characters talking to her and how their voices surprise her and all that jazz that makes me go “wtf is wrong with you?”

But what really causes chagrine: she has to fucking write/direct Jack’s Mannequin’s new music video. Yes, HER, the last person I want to see work with JM. I do not approve of this idea, at all. I’ll still be looking foward to the video, but I’m not necessarily going to look at it in much of a loving way. SMeyer just needs to stay out of my life. She’s ruining some of my love for JM at the moment.

Shut up.

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Protected: WHERE IS YOLANTA WHEN I NEED HER?! #(*)^$@&

In anger, confusion, random, vent on July 25, 2008 by Michelle

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Maybe it’s just my hormones talking

In anger, vent on June 7, 2008 by Michelle

But I hardly think so. So I’m angered at the fact that despite knowing what you don’t like, people still do it! I hardly understand the point of inputs when it won’t be taken into consideration how much it can hurt a person. Truly, I’m hurt and disappointed. I thought better of a person so much more than what they really may be. I truly trusted with all my heart, but I found this so hard to believe and I found it so hard to trust them this time. It eventually leads me to think: what else do I not know? Anyway, then I thought: if you meant to hide it, why didn’t you hide it better? Blows!

Well at least reading something kind of cheered me up.<3 Thanks.

“Ich werde dich immer erinnern.”