May!

It has been a month and an update is long overdue. It’s weird thinking about how I used to blog so much and now all of a sudden I’ve just stopped. It has almost been 2 years since I’ve had this blog!

AP tests are over and that is a big relief! Calculus AB was by far the easiest test I’ve taken. I’m not quite sure about the others, I think I just did average on those, except for biology, which was probably slightly below average. I have got to admit that it was pretty impressive when my bs about viruses and the central dogma of biology turned out to be right! Anyway, I’m hoping for some positive responses in July. :D

So recently I tried downloading the CS4 Master Collection again, and it turned out to be epic fail! I kept getting, “Session has dependencies that cannot be satisfied,” when I tried to start the setup. Then I remembered that when I got my CS3 Photoshop, I had to delete my Photoshop 7, so I deleted my CS3 hoping that it would work. BUT IT DID NOT WORK WHATSOEVER! Then I just thought I could live with just CS3 and I can download Illustrator separately later, so I got the setup for my CS3 and that didn’t even work! So now I’m CS4-less and CS3-less. It’s so sad for me to not have my Photoshop. But Chase is saving my life. :)

I’m also really mad about the debates we’re doing in APUSH. I’m just frustrated that I got a crap of a partner that cannot formulate her own thoughts and let alone the rebuttals! I think I should have gotten the chance to pick who I wanted to work with. Stupid AP bio test screwed me over. If we are keeping these same partners for the next debate, I swear that I am going to go insane because I hate doing so much work.

I really don’t see a reason in pushing things back nor do I find it necessary to see how far a person would bend until they break, figuratively. I think if you chose to do what you do, you should be able to manage your time, if you can’t, you shouldn’t be doing what you’re doing then. Grow up; you’re not always going to have people bending to your requests. Get used to staying up late every once in a while, it’s not the end of the world if you’re tired the next morning.

It really bothers me nowadays when people are doing things the very last minute seeing how we haven’t been having any homework in our AP classes except for APUSH. No excuses. I don’t give a crap if you have other stuff because you’re not obligated to do those things in the first place.

I’m quite disturbed by some things that I found out. She’s way too desperate and blind and he’s an unfaithful jerk. At the same time, I don’t feel bad that she’s putting herself in a bad situation because she should be learning from other people’s mistakes and she should know that people don’t change. If she can’t learn from people’s mistakes, then I hope she learns from her own after screwing up. I sound mean, but I’m pretty sure that what used to be a “close” friend would not do that to one another, and that makes the consequences well-deserved.

Things would be better off if certain people would get a life and get out of mine. Honestly, I was hoping to never see that person again, but apparently I’ll be seeing them plenty next year. If he happens to butt into my business, I very well will give him a hard time, no joke. If they give crap, I will openly disagree with their methods because as of what I’m hearing, I will hate them to the moon and back.

And that concludes an update from my last post til now, with some missing things in between.

On a side note, I hope Kris Allen wins American Idol. Adam Lambert was good but his voice gets on my last nerves now. It’s just simultaneous shrieking that I wish would stop.

COOK FTW!

David Cook winning American Idol was probably the highlight of my week. I’m completely satisfied that he won and there is no doubt that he will have a successful career. I kind of felt bad for Archuleta considering that his Tuesday performances were very lovely. But looking throughout the season, you cannot doubt that Cook stood out above the rest more than anybody else. Truly, I am looking forward to a new album of his. I really wonder how it would sound like because with him, you don’t know what you’re expecting, just that it’ll be something different.

You know what’s amusing? How Archuleta always seems a bit under-dressed compared to Cook. And I wish Cook would wear something other than cowboy boots, I honestly don’t like them very much.

David Cook

I just decided to make a post about David Cook and possibly American Idol in general. It feels like I have completely left you all blank about how I feel about American Idol right now; not like you’d really care. But this serves for me a way to rant without bothering anybody.

So I have completely went from Archuleta to Cook in a matter of a few weeks. I have found that Archie does not give me the chills when he sings because he’s so overly boring now. He has become too predictable and he’s just like an overplayed song on the radio. Sure he’s a prodigy, but he’s just so freaken boring! Which then slowly leads to him appearing less attractive even though his looks haven’t changed much.

My switch over to David Cook all started when he sang Day-Tripper. Actually, I have no idea when, it just kind of happened because I slowly began to realize that he was so talented. Plus, I like his voice; it’s that rock-band type of voice, which I happen to absolutely love. Well I was sure that I was finally in love with his voice when he sang “Always Be My Baby”. That song made me cry. It just proves to be so darn good. :) I would like somebody to serenade that to me.

I think the next person to go home should be Jason. Sadly, he’s so boring too. I might as well add ‘weak’ as well, because his voice is so weak. His style isn’t interesting anymore because he hardly makes a lasting impression and he hardly stands out above the rest. The next to go home needs to be Syesha. She’s proving to be talented, but I don’t think he’s going to cut it just because the show is such a popularity contest. Speaking of which, if Archie wins the whole thing being just the way he has been for the past few weeks, I will be so pissed off. Anyway, as of now, I’m sure the finale is going to be a battle of the David’s.

May I also add; I was browsing through Livejournal communities for David Cook news, and I came upon these Fan-fictions. I read one of the chapters and oh my gosh, it was so disturbing. :( It makes me so sad to read stories like that partially because I do not like how the author portrayed the characters. I also found out that his poor brother, Adam (I think), is dealing with cancer. That is so sad.

A let down.

American Idol tonight was a let down, not the whole thing though. It was just David Archuleta’s performance that I was disappointed in, I thought it would be so much better, but it was just kind of like whatever. But I absolutely loved David Cook’s. Goodness, he was amazing. Danny Noriega’s was by far the funniest that he has done. If you missed if, look for it on YouTube. It’s freaken fantastic in the funniest way possible. I started laughing so much that I decided to call somebody to laugh about it with.

On another note, today I spent so much of my afternoon with Rowland kids playing ‘Around the World’ and giving this speech about hurting other people’s feelings and such. Apparently I have my own little fan club, amazing right? Haha, not really.

At this moment, I am supposed to be writing my report that’s due tomorrow. It shouldn’t be too hard when I have an outline of the book in front of me. :O I was just searching for the character’s brother’s name and I ran across a whole outline on WikiSummaries. Absolutely the most convenient thing ever when I am basically going to die of exhaustion. I can hardly stand being tired anymore.

Have I mentioned anything about my supposed ‘repressed thoughts’? I don’t know, I think I’ll elaborate on it some other time when I remember what I said to myself last night. Or maybe I’ll make that right now, but my elaborate is just a few more sentences, according to what’s going on in my head right now.

According to Sigmund Freud, we exclude certain thoughts, desires, impulses, or feelings into our consciousness and try to contain them in our subconscious. Apparently those repressed thoughts aren’t always running in your mind, but it somehow still affects you everyday without you being conscious of it. Repression is said to be a defense mechanism and are usually traumatic events. This all makes me wonder what I try to repress. Like what am I trying to defend myself from? What even happened in my life that was so traumatic? When I try to think of something, it feels like my heart skips a beat or it would beat really fast for a second and then slow back down to normal. It’s such a weird feeling because I feel it every time I think on this subject. It feels like I know what it is, but I just refuse to admit it and think that I’m actually repressing nothing. To be honest, where this all started, I have no idea. I think it really had to have started from this random day when I decided to look at horoscopes online and it said that I’d have dreams about the thoughts I’ve repressed and it turned out that same night I had the most awkward dream that felt so realistic. It’s like one of those dreams that I have about an event that will occur a month or so later and then when it happens it all seems so familiar and I’ll finally realize that it came from a dream then I start freaking out because I had dreamed about it previously. That’s the moment I usually yell “OMG DEJA VU!” Wicked crazy I tell you.

I think I’m going to write about that on my next free write and read it because right now, my heart feels heavy and awkward. It feels like being weighed down by an anchor.

American Idol: Guys Week 1

I love watching the guys’ day on American Idol when they separate the boys from the girls. Honestly, I have no interest for the ladies until they’ve been all mixed in together with the guys. So anyway, I watched all of the auditions for the boys today and I have to say, I have some favorites already. :)

David Archuleta is quite possible the most adorable kid on that show this season! Every time I see him on the screen singing, my heart melts just a little and makes me go “Oh my, David.” I have biased opinions about this kid because I’ll think he’s the best any way. But despite all the good looks, I think he’s very talented. He’s 17 and he definitely didn’t sound 17 at all.

As for the other guys, I liked Colton Berry. At some angles, he doesn’t look that great, but his voice is fantastic. I really liked it. Danny Noriega looks a bit girlish at some angles too, freaky. The song he performed reminded me so much of John Peter Lewis from a few seasons back; that guy was my favorite then, but he got voted off. Michael Johns has a very manly voice, I like that. :) Jason Castro sounded pretty nice and the whole guitar thing worked. I just have one question; what is up with the hair?

Overall, I think it’s obvious who I like the most. ;D